10 things that I should have become or done before I get married

I have been telling myself, I am the worth the wait, I may not be the prettiest but I have a lot to offer for my future husband. Lately though, I am not feeling great about myself, about my life. I am my biggest critic and I know I am a work in progress but I just think that there are too much to work on. So, to calm me down, not to over think the future, just keeping my faith to God because God is so invested in my happiness he won’t let me down, I did a short soul-searching. Instead of me thinking what the root cause is why I am still single, instead of looking for my Mr. Right, I have decided to be Ms. Right and eventually, God will lead my Ian Veneracion-type of a husband (I really do not have a crush on Ian Veneracion but I had a dream that my husband who loves very much looks like him). So here we have the 10 things that I should become before I consider myself as Ms. Right.

11    I have to be happy. A relationship will not make a person happy. An unhappy single when in a relationship or get married will just be an unhappy person in a relationship / unhappy married person. Your partner should compliment you not complete you.

22     I have to be financially free. I want to give the best for my future kids and I am not really the type of woman who wants to depend 100% to her man especially financially and so I have to make sure that all my debts and what not are taken care of.

33     I have to be 105 lbs. That has always been the dream.

44     I have to have paid my dues and have done my part in volunteering or breaking my heart for the less fortunate. If anyone knows the story of Bo Sanchez, how he lived with old people for three years, I want to do something like that but not actually living my job. I just basically want to give something that I have, which is my money, my talent and my time. I am more of an action type of person. I just don’t want to give to church; I really want to do something about it.

55     I have to have a very good and close relationship to God. When you love someone or when you are in a relationship, God should be the center of it. I think that’s the secret of a happy marriage. I cannot inspire and disciple someone to be close to God if I am not.

66    I have to be healthy. There is only one me and I have to take care of myself. I need to ensure that I am healthy. If I am healthy, eventually, everything in the outside will fix itself.

77     I have to have taken care of my vices or at least control them. This is something that I have been focusing on lately. I really don’t want to talk about them right now but hopefully when the time comes to be with my Mr. Right, I do not have vices.

88     I have to be secured. I had issues in the past with my insecurity and I am proud that I have taken care of that after battling with self-esteem issues for most of my life but we’ll never know if it comes back and becomes an obstacle in my relationship.  

99    I have to learn how to love. I mean romantically, I seem to have approached life and relationship like a business transaction where in I should always get my ‘return of investment’. I don’t know how to explain it but I just hope I can love again the way that I loved before wherein I will just love and not wait for anything in return.

110 I have to start my wedding fund. Again, I do not want to be financially dependent on my husband so it’s best to be prepared. 

No Good Deed Goes Unpunished

The reason why it took me so long before I posted something is because I do not want to be subjective and emotional and just be negative and be some blogger who rants about her life or whatever. In all honesty, I just experienced this recently, in my line of work, it is important that you have some type of emotional deposit with the people that you work with. The downside to that is that people become familiar with you and when you are to give them constructive criticism, they do not see it that way, they see it as an attack or they feel that you do not want to do a part of your job. I really do not want to say more about it but I have to admit, I also have my own mistake, I was not very good in handling the situation at that time. I am not good in articulating myself so it may have appeared that I am annoyed with the person instead of his actions. I was able to be in contact again with the same person, I really do not have a choice, I have to be professional but if that person still feels the same way towards me instead of just reviewing himself, I do not think I am the losing part here. I have recognized the errors of my ways and see it as a learning experience. This quote is something that I have to bear in mind because I know that in the future, that person will not be the last ungrateful person and may translate my action into something negative instead of beneficial for them.   

The Last Witch Hunter: Review

My sister and I saw this movie last Saturday and since we used my last free ticket, it's not like we felt so bad that we saw a not-so good movie. Well, we only had few options when we went to SM Muntinlupa. My options were between The Last Witch Hunter and Goosebumps and I decided to go with Vin Diesel over Jack Black. I guess, I was expecting too much from this movie that's why it was so easy for me to be disappointed.

So, this is about Kaulder who is the last Witch Hunter, he became immortal when he killed the Witch Queen. During his lifetime, he is being assisted by what they call a Dolan and unfortunately they are just named by numbers. The 36th Dolan played by Michael Caine retired and was replaced by the 37th Dolan played by Elijah Wood. 36 died on his last day as Kaulder's keeper. Kaulder felt that he was killed by magic and this is where the story got interesting. Apparently, there was a plot to bring the Witch Queen back and Kaulder is supposed to stopped that with the help of a witch bar owner who is also a witch and a dreamwalker named Chloe.

For some reason, there is just really something wrong with this movie. I was expecting this to be a "Wow" despite the low marketing whatever of this film maybe they were thinking, let;s just let the people know that Vin Diesel made another action flick and people will be expecting it to be like Fast and Furious only a little supernatural and hope that they will buy it. So it just did not meet expectations, the characters are so disengaging. They are just not interesting. They are just not properly built up for people to have sympathy for the characters. I could not even care for Chloe's loss when her friend Miranda died. I got over the next minute after I learned of Elijah Wood's betrayal. I'm not sure but Kaulder says more than act more. He did some witch hunter stuff but not enough for one to be really amazed. I don't know maybe it's the script but there's really something about this film that made me feel that it did not meet its potential given with Vin Diesel as leads. Elijah Wood is supposed to be a supporting but he appeared to be just I don't know more of a special guest? The movie's resolution really did not make sense to me, he is still the last Witch Hunter, the Witch Queen's heart is still beating that's why he's still alive, he just switched loyalty of some sort because now, Chloe became his official sidekick and driver instead of the organization that kept up with him all this years. He is acting more of a freelancer which really did not make much sense, I mean, the first Dolan just lied of where his immortality came from but it's not they caused his family's death for his alliance with them to be broken in the end. They meant to use him as a weapon that's why they kept him alive all this years so I don't get the ending, maybe because they are planning to make a franchise but to be frank, I am not that interested for the sequel.

Oh well, the movie is not all that bad though, I can say it's enjoyable and any time that it will show up in my cable movie channel, I would still watch it over reruns.

My goal for October

So it is now November, let me just tell you a brief story of my life. Last year, around September, after my birthday, at 133lbs, I decided to lose weight and apparently I did but of course during the course of the year, I fail to continue with my diet and with my workout, although I did not gain all of the pounds that I lost, I still gained some weight. I was at 130lbs. I also reviewed my life and I did not imagine my life to be like this. Well, it’s not that I am not happy right now; I am just expecting a different story. I decided that I wanted to take charge of my life and for the last 3 years, I kept on telling myself that I will be 105lbs but that did not seem to happen. I told myself at the end of 2015, I will be 105lbs. I did the juicing diet for a week on the third week of October and my weight dropped to 122lbs but then, I stopped it for the final week of October and because of my schedule and weather, I am only able to exercise during my rest days. October ended and I am at 126, I am a little bit disappointed myself but a weight loss is still a weight loss. I will just work harder for this month so that I will end November at 113 lbs.    

Do not Rush

As the preacher said in the Feast session that I attended, unless bombs are falling off from the sky, we should not rush into things. The talk series at that time is about relationships and getting married but I think this applies also in other aspects of life, like business, career, etc.

Why shouldn't we rush things? 

Well, I remembered an episode of The Mentalist, the locksmith died. His wife tells the story of how he first unlock a safe but she does not remember what was in it. It was the mystery that excited and motivated the locksmith to unlock the safe, what I am saying here is life is not just about the end goal or us reaching our dreams and ambitions but the journey towards it. So for this week, my dear readers, I just want you to remove the pressure, smell the flowers and enjoy the ride. Do not rush things, as I always say or type, God is so much invested in your happiness, He will not let you down, just trust in Him and in His perfect timing, things will happen to you. Your prayers will be answered.